stephy_jade

The strands in your eyes
That color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains
Thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows
Of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival
You're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows
Of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I've dropped out
Burned up
Fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in
Turned on
Remembered the things you said

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of you life

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Beign with you gets me that way
I watch the sunlight dance across your face
And i've never been this swept away
All my thoughts just seem to settle on the breeze
When i'm lying wrapped up in your arms
The whole world just fades away
The only thing I hear
Is the beating of your heart

Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
And suddenly i'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby, all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
Slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's suppose to be
I can feel you breathe

In a way I know my heart is waking up
As all the walls come tumbling down
Closer than i've ever felt before
And I know, and you know
There's no need for words right now

Cause I can feel you breathe
It's washing over me
And suddenly i'm melting into you
There's nothing left to prove
Baby, all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch
Slow and steady rush
Baby, isn't that the way that love's suppose to be
I can feel you breathe

I can feel the magic floating in the air
Being with you gets me that way...

How do I, get through a night without you
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be...

Oh I, need you in my arms need you to hold
Your my world, my heart, my soul, if you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life

Chorus:
And tell me now, how do I live without you
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I, how do I, Oh how do I live

Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me

And I, baby I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you, if you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life

Chorus

Please tell me baby
How do I go on
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything, need you with me
Baby don't you know that your everything, good in my life

Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air
(Screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
(What can I do)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken


I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken

i will push you away
when i need you the most

i will tell you i'm okay
when i feel the world is against me

i will hide me emotions from you
and cry myself to sleep at night

i will get dressed up for things
but i'd much rather be in trackies

i will always love my friends
but sometimes they irritate me

i will change the subject
so i don't have to talk about how i feel

i will help others deal with their problems
so i don't have to deal with my own


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i have days where i cannot stop laughing

i have days where everything seems to fit in nicely

i have days where i feel like being neat & tidy

i have days where i'll wake up early & go out

i have days where i'll go for a walk, just because...

i have days where the smile cannot be removed from my face



& then...



i have days where things get a little too overwhelming

i have days where i want to stay in bed and never move

i have days where i just want to sit and cry for hours & hours

i have days where i make a big mess

i have days where i don't get out of my pj's

i have days where it seems that nothing can make me happy

today sucked, just like i thought it would, this morning was ok, but it got downhill from there, but then kind of piked up again. the 2 most screwed up things were that beth wasnt there and i miss her heaps, and that, well ok, it was just b4 english and i sit on the end of the table, and then its like kate, clare n issy and i got there b4 anyone, and was sitting by myself, and they saw that, and then they walked in and sat in the middle with lauren and ellie. i almost broke into tears in the classroom because it was me and 3 empty seats and then shiz n stuf, i felt so rejected, so i moved up, but that didnt help. then at recess i had a break down and ran into the toilets, lexc came in for me, and then so did kieran, which was sweet, everyone was like um kieran wat were u doing in the girls toilets. then tonight we went to brighton to do sport which was ok, and tonight im going to guitar.

i dont want this night to end, which is why im not in bed at the moment. the reason i dont want it to end is basically because i really dont want to go back to school. its going to be so different. theres lots of girls that have left and one just happens to be one of my best friends =( its guna suck so much. ='(. damn hailbury and there half off school fee crap lol. *sighs*
well now that we've established that tomorrow is going to suck the big one. lets get onto what i have been doing during the holidays, because i dont think ive wrote in this for ages. well, first week, i didnt really do much actually, i think i saw kieran like once, oh my nana came over...that was the first week right, god i cant even member, ok lets not even go into week.
well, i saw kieran which includes when his family and grandparents drove all the way down to patto to have dinner just so i could come, i thought that was so sweet. um me and lexc went to the city, and i think i got us lost. umm...beths movie night, that was awesome, loved it, so tired lol. panic at the disco last night, that was so awesome, and then slept over at lexcs which id been meaning to for a while. um yeah, ive prolly missed some stuff, but im too tired to rememeber
well i have nothing more to write so i think ill sign off now
lots of love stephy xoxox

There's two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she's
daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and
I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her
hair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
In all that I've done wrong I know I must
have done something right to deserve a hug
every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking
little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you
don't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong I must have done
something right to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly.
Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not
sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over...gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"

Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have
done something right.
To deserve your love every morning and butterfly
kisses-I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.

[Boy:] There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed if I just listened to it right outside the window
[Girl:] There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust and I just knew my eyes were drying up forever

[Both:]
I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I have ever made

[Boy:]
But when you touch me like this (touch me like this)
And you hold me like that (hold me like that)
Its so hard to believe that it's all coming back to me

[Girl:]
It's all coming back
It's all coming back to me now

[Boy:]
There were moments of gold and there were flashes of light
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow-baby, baby!

If I kiss you like this (kiss you like this)
And if you whisper like that (whisper like that)
It was lost long ago but it's all coming back to me

If you want me like this (if you want me like this)
And if you need me like that (if you need me like that)
It was dead long ago but it's all coming back to me

It's so hard to resist and it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall, but it's all coming back to me now....

But if I touch you like this (touch you like this)
And if you kiss me like that (kiss me like that)
It was gone with the wind but its all coming back to me

[Boy:]
There were moments of gold and there were flashes of light
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow-baby, baby, baby!

When you touch me like this (touch me like this)
And when you hold me like that (hold me like that)
It was gone with the wind but it's all coming back to me

When you see me like this (see me like this)
And when I see you like that (see you like that)
Then we see what we want to see-all coming back to me

The flesh and the fantasies-all coming back to me
I can barley recall, but it's all coming back to me now....

If you forgive me all this (forgive me all this)
If I forgive you all that (forgive you all that)
We forgive and forget and it's all coming back to me now

[Girl:] It's all coming back to me now
[Boy:] We forgive and forget
[Both:] And it's all coming back to me now....